I'm Free

So I just received an email from my attorney saying that my appeal was denied. This was my one last hope of things working out and waiting for a miracle to happen. I am glad that we already have a plan in place and I do have a pit in my stomach but I can't say I didn't see this coming. I knew that it was a 1 in a billion chance that it would work and unfortunately it didn't.

I am happy I have an answer and I can now officially put all of this immigration stuff behind me and just look forward. For now we are going to Mexicali to live and who knows maybe next year we will begin to try for Canada. But I have a feeling we are going to like Mexicali and we'll just wait there until the ban is up in December 2020.

I really do feel relieved that I wont have to talk about this anymore. Any time I talk to friends or family the first thing they ask about is my case. They don't understand but every time they bring it up it's like a dagger in my heart. I am happy to tell everyone the final word and ask them to not bring it up again for another 8 years. My mind can now focus on my life right now at this moment. Not worry about the future and what may or may not happen.

God is good and I know he has a plan for me and my family. I have faith that this will all work out. No more immigration talk, I'm free. I am in my home country learning about my culture and experiencing new things everyday and the best part is that I'm free. I can travel here and not have to worry about my "papers". It's an amazing feeling when someone knocks on the door and you don't have that fear to open it wondering if it's immigration. I no longer see cops and worry if they pull me over. I can apply for any job I want and not have to worry about getting fired if they find out and then worry about how we are going to pay the bills. There is an upside to all of this and it is my freedom!!