This week

         

           So since Monday my husband hasn't had internet. He won't have internet until Friday and I am going crazy. After almost two years we had this down to a science and now everything is off. He also has vonage so of course now he can't even call me on the phone or Skype with me. I miss signing to my daughter every night and saying good morning to them. I miss watching my daughter for hours as she plays or I read her books. I miss talking 20 times a day with them to just talk about our day. I feel really lonely and this sucks! My daughter is also so use to seeing me everyday on Skype that when I don't call her at our regular times she gets upset. Now that I haven't seen her in a few days she is taking it pretty badly. Today while my hubby was at work my mother in law was kind enough to take my daughter to McDonald's to use the free wifi to call me on Skype. Well I was super happy to see my daughter but she wouldn't even say two words to me. I tried everything but she was just not having it and I try to be strong but it breaks my heart.

              For now our only form of communication is texting my hubby's work phone which is keeping me going. I am so grateful for my husband, he makes me feel so much better no matter what. He is so sweet and supportive of everything. I am also very thankful for technology because to be honest it is what has kept our marriage alive. And not only that I feel like we are better then ever. When I first arrived in Mexico so many people said he is a guy and has needs, he will not be faithful, you guys will never make it through this and a bunch of other crap. Well I am damn proud to say that not only did we make it but it has brought us closer together and our love is stronger than ever. I am so happy to know that this is the man I am going to spend the rest of my life with. And in exactly 7 weeks from today we will be starting our new life in Mexicali and I am so ready to start making new memories. I told my hubby that since I've been in Mexico I always think back to the life we use to have in Utah and how much I miss it. But hopefully soon I wont have to do that anymore because we will be together again. I am so excited to have a life again and watch my daughter grow up. Before all of this I thought I valued everything and lived life to the fullest but there are so many things I wish I would have done differently or valued more. After all of this I appreciate all of the little things because at the end of the day it's the small things that count and make life worth while! Good night world.